Do you enjoy seeing all of the epic success stories? There’s more than what meets the eye behind it…
We do our best to show our successes. And not just because we do in fact have a lot of them, but also because we know its important for all too focus on them! The need for planting the right seeds repeatedly into our mind, and into the minds of those who view our work and our journey, will continue to manifest and achieve further. After all, we are creating our realities by the perceptions we have, conscious or unconscious.
You may see the occasional âbloopersâ real and âInstagram vs Real Lifeâ videos, to remind us all that it isnât all glorious stuff on your way to greatness; this blog post is to give a deeper glimpse into that realm and to paradoxically pull forth something good from something that isnât good: The Hardest Part [of living the life of your dreams].
Itâs going through the copious amounts of authentic and unexpected discomforts life will offer us all. There truly are so many and we all will inevitably experience them, whether we are applying ourselves towards creating what we desire, or not.
The one that is the most constant for me is the feeling of being under seen and under appreciated, while copious amounts of âbuffoon contentâ (doing stupid things for people to gawk at, or selling sex/surface level) go into the millions of views and tens to hundreds of thousands of engagement. It really is no wonder why a person would have fear in going out into the world. There appears to be so so many people ready to âsell their soulâ and not commit to their heart, for the attention of so many others. Even this blog post is not likely to go far because it is too raw, real and authentic. Still living the truth is greater than living a lie.
There are plenty of signs and teachings that point to the fact that I should be indifferent about growing numbers. With faith and understanding in Oneness, we realize that for one, there is always and only one person, one viewer, in each of our universes at all times; there is only your Self. And two, if we truly get great at developing our faith, regardless of creed or science, we find we can, and do, manifest out of thin air, blessing after blessing that no amount of attention or money could ever buy. Divine inspiration comes into form out of thin air.
So why is this still such a hard thing for me? Why do I keep desiring greater numbers, if it really doesnât matter? Well, there brings about a sense of satisfaction in knowing I am authentically well appreciated by many; that type of emotion to me is still sacred, especially with all the buffoonery about. Also, growing in numbers and popularity holds with it the vibration of ease of âgetting inâ and opening doors that poorer, smaller numbers people canât. This is the hardest thing living life on the road as a person who does not work for anyone (no completely steady steam of income), nor is willing to sell out to become famous.
I always keep growing in faith, to the point where I have cultivated what I call âUltimate and Unwavering Faithâ, that comes both from knowing that your mental-emotional frequency is all that is, so tend your mental soil and plant your favorite thought seeds over and over, as well as the clearness that there is more afoot that meets the eye.
Call it God, call it your angels or spiritual guides, call it the universe, or Source, or whatever you like; it is clear that something or someone is bestowing you blessings of things you did not think about and could have never imagined. Santa Clause is real, but under what body or label I have not yet gotten clear on. I currently humbly call it âGodâ sometimes followed by âSpirit/Source/Mother-Father Mind/Allah/Universeâ to include the other primary ways of defining such an entity. You could say It is the ultimate unknown and the ultimate discomfort zone; even and especially for people who have a practice or religion that is stagnant in its decreeing this thing is separate from you as an individual ego.
Where am I going with this? I donât know. Where is any expression going, truly. Iâm not trying to prove a point, only express and hold space that it may come to some use to someone beyond myself. Iâm clearing out some mental-emotional garbage, seeing if thereâs actually some gold in it.
I have all the tools already, and the skills developed to transmute and transcend it, but Iâm tired of doing it so repeatedly. If this is truly the Kingdom of Heaven, then I donât need to keep tediously performing a task or skill that is ârightâ, I just need to do something. Writing has always been a good something to do, and itâs been awhile since I just wrote. It feels good.
The lesson, if there is a lesson at all for you, is that there is a wonderful paradox of feeling comfortable in exploring the uncomfortable. If or when you find that this is true, you have come into an awareness that the hardest thing doesnât have to be so hard, if you just get it out from inside and put it out into the world. Maybe thatâs the transmutation for all the buffoonery, not that people are selling out but letting out, and those who feel they can relate in some show their appreciation through their participation/reflecting energy.
When we show some intimacy, for right or wrong reasons, we are always rewarded, even if we are humbled, or possibly humiliated. We grow from the pressure, even if the pressure breaks us down. Will that growth bring life, or decay? That is the difference between true success and the illusion of success for our own or others appeasements. This defines the understanding of âbetter to be of service of the high, than rule on the low.â For what itâs worth, I feel better.
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